Ah the newborn

You tell yourself you remember what its like to have a newborn, but lets face it you don't remember everything with vivid detail. The crying, peeing, pooping, crying. It's all a blur when your a first time parent. The second time around you are sitting in the middle of a sleep deprived battlefield and you ask yourself "why the hell did I want to do this again?" Then you look down at the "baby" who is really revenge in disguise (revenge sent from your own parents I'm sure) and they are looking up at you like you are their entire world and you remember "Oh ya its because of those looks, and the upcoming smiles and laughs".

Joseph is 2 weeks old and already I'm amazed at how fast everything is going. It has been a real adjustment period for our entire family. Even though Joey is a really good sleeper at night, he goes 4-6 hours before waking for a feeding, we are still sleep deprived. It takes allot of rocking and nursing to get him to sleep. But I will not complain! Little Miss Alexandria was the worst sleeper imaginable! She would not sleep anywhere but in someone's arms. And at night if she wasn't nursing she was awake and screaming! The child cried more in her first 2 days of life than Joseph in his first 2 weeks.

I am grateful for the tremendous love that Alex has for her brother. She thinks the sun and moon rise and set on Mr. Joseph. She is constantly hugging and kissing him. When he cries, she runs to his side, cooing softly "its ok buddy! Shhhh!" She doesn't get mad when Mom or Dad can't do something right away because we are in the middle of something with Joseph. She just says "Okay!" and waits 2 minutes before asking again lol. She is also turning out to be a great little slave! We are using her quite shamefully to fetch diapers, clothes, toys. But she LOVES to help! It makes her feel really important.

I had my first horrible Mommy moment with Joseph on Tuesday. I took him to get circumcised. I felt confident that I could stay in the room for the procedure but when I went into the OR the first thing I saw was the little platform with Velcro restraints that they intended to strap my son into. Well I almost threw up! Dr. Keller reassured me that Joseph was in good hands and I left to worry and fret in the waiting room. I should have gone further away because I had to sit for 15 minutes listening to my precious son scream his head off! Finally it was over and Joseph spent 45 minutes telling me about the whole horrible ordeal. He would alternate with whimpering and whining to crying and screaming. It was very hard to hear. I am so glad that it's over and done with though. Everything is healing very quickly and nicely. ;)

I'm looking forward to the 1 month mark. By then I hope to have this feeding thing all figured out, hopefully the sleeping thing will get better, and maybe he'll let Mom have a bath without sending his poor daddy into fits (every time I step into the bath Joseph remembers he is starving and spends my entire bath crying and trying to nurse off of Pats shoulders and arms). Baby steps I guess ;)